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A rant, ignore if you don't want to be depressed :D

Posted on 2006.03.03 at 23:13
My...state of mind...: tiredtired
My tune: Josh Groban, I still miss him!! Need new songs!!!
Hi :), you know, how are there moments when you just don’t know what to do??
I mean… right now I’m really, really tired. I have been having an awful time lately.
First one of my grandma’s sisters got sick, she was in the hospital for almost 2 weeks, we thought she was going to die, good thing is that she got better, she had to had an awful surgery, but she’s better now, that’s good, even if she lost her leg :(. I’m not going to go into details, but it was awful!!
Also my Mom has been having troubles with her arthritis again :(, her knees are just awful!!! But besides the medication and making her walk there is no much I can do about it, just try to spoil her as much as I can.
Together with this, my father has been having health issues for the last 3 weeks!! I can’t help but being mad at him!! First he injured his shoulder, but he went with this doctor that he prefers but never manage to really help him!! He gave him a lot of medication, and what happens?? My father got an allergic reaction!! He looked like a lobster!!! Besides that he injured his back, and for the last 2 weeks, after the allergy vanished, his back has been giving him troubles, the really awful thing?? I just don’t believe him when he says he’s in pain :(!!!
Apparently my father is jealous of my Mom’s sickness!!! Can you believe it?? With the way he’s been talking about himself is almost as if he wanted to have a spinal problem!! Like my Mom’s 2 years ago!! He even managed to get the same kind of medication, even if it’s really strong!! I really, really dislike his doctor!! Well… 2 of his doctors, yeah people he went to 3 different doctors in less than 3 weeks!!
One of them is my Mom’s therapist, he’s ok, but Dr. Mary always gives him what he wants!!! And the other doctor does the same thing :(. I mean my Mom has been giving him shots for the last 2 weeks!!! Sometimes even 2 or 3 in the same day!! And we just can’t convince him to stop taking all the medication :(.
Also, since I’m the… “sane one” at home I’m really really tired!!! I have to take care of the house, help my Mom in everything she needs and take care of my father ‘cause for him is just Monica!!! I need water, or Monica!!! Can you turn on the light?? Or Monica!! The episode of 4400 is over, could you change to the next episode!! I’m really starting to hate my name!!
I have been trying to read, to listen to music, to do something to relax myself but every time it’s starting to work someone yells for me :(. Right now this rant is helping, and I have to thank God for the Chlark fics I have been finding this last weeks, they help, at least for a while :).
Oh well, I hope my father is going to feel better soon, ‘cause if not then my heart problems are going to start again :( and I don’t want to take medication again!!! That and I think I’m gaining weight!!! Sadly chocolate does lift my spirits for a while.
Ok, this is really long!!!! Oh well, good thing I started my father’s episode of 4400 before starting to write, if not who knows :D.
Oh, and if anyone is interested I updated my poems page http://www.fictionpress.com/~monicao , apparently lack of sleep and that stuff helps me write ;), now I have 10 poems!!! Also  if everyone read this please don’t get mad at me for the rant ok, I need it!!!.
Hugs, be well and take care.


Hmmmm piepiepie at 2006-03-03 22:22 (UTC) (Novel in progress)
Oh sweetie I'm sorry about everything.

And why the hell would I be mad at you for "the rant"???

*big hugs*
Reading is life... :)
Hmmmm monicaop at 2006-03-04 10:51 (UTC) (Novel in progress)
Well... I know my journal is not that interesting, and I didn't wanted to create such a long thing, but after I started I couldn't stop!!, Hugs!! a lot, lots of hugs :D.
Hmmmm the_satyr_icon at 2006-03-03 23:09 (UTC) (Novel in progress)
Rant and Rave, your friends support you!

Reading is life... :)
Hmmmm monicaop at 2006-03-04 10:52 (UTC) (Novel in progress)
Thanks :D it does makes me feel better ;) hugs!!! :D.
Hmmmm kissme_myfool at 2006-03-03 23:21 (UTC) (Novel in progress)
aww I hope everything gets better. You being there for your family truly shows how strong you are :)
Reading is life... :)
Hmmmm monicaop at 2006-03-04 10:53 (UTC) (Novel in progress)
Well... some may say strong, other stubborn, others... just plain insane ;), thanks girl, you help me so much, you have no idea :D, hugs!!!!
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